I just thought about my relationship with Joel. I am not sure if we are meant to be. Hopefully God will help me seek the answers of my questions. I like Joel so much now compared last year. He changed a little and I like it. We act more mature na than before. I hope he’s always like that. there is something bothering me and I can’t explain here what is it. It’s about him going to his province after his graduation. Sometimes I wish that he will fail his subjects so that he can’t graduate that early. Aww…..I’m so selfish! But that’s what I feel. I hope God will me give me the strength to the future consequences .