I had a fight with Joel this afternoon. He was too angry that he doesn’t want to talk to me anymore. I just thought of something. I realized that our relationship has no purpose. I can’t think of any purpose. Maybe it was just keeping company. I don’t know. I am so confused. I hate him when he’s too angry. He is being an immature when he’s angry and I really hate it. I hope someday when the time comes that we’re separated, he will realized my worth. Also when that time comes, I hope I will be open minded and find someone who will love me better the way he does. I hope God would help me. I need it now. I think Joel is the punishment for the bad things that I have done.